I Moved Across the Country By Myself
In June of 2016 i made the decision to take my kids and move halfway across the United states.. Just me and my kids... It was literally one of the hardest things ive ever done, 2years later i still have a hard time rather its learning about how things work in this state or where places are at (thank God for gps, most days lol) or just missing my two best friends... Last week my uncle passsed away, my family is anything but close (which helped make my move a bit easier) but it kills me to know i wasnt there at his bedside, to know that i wont be there this week for the funeral and that i wont be at the burial.. Just one more hard moment of moving so far away... I will say with the many downs and some ups too moving so far away all in all im happy i made the move, you see i had lost myself in all the chaos.. I came from an abusive marriage, id lost every bit of selfesteem every bit of confidence i had.. But moving so far away i was able to start loving myself again, theres no more driving thru the same towns that held the same bad memories no more chances of running into my kids father/xhusband no more fears that he could come back and finish what he started.. Im at peace now.. I finally feel like i can live my life.. And though i still have a long road to recovery ahead of me i feel like this has been a beautiful new beginning for me and my kids <3
