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I Lost a Child

A Letter To My Son... Dear Ibrahim,
        Though you never knew me, you were the most precious thing I had ever seen with my eyes or held in my hands.

Though you never took your first breath, you took my breath away, when I held you in my arms for the first time. 

You are my first born and you will always be my most precious. I held you in my arms when you came into this world and I held you in my arms as I lay you to rest. 

I only ask that God whispers in your ear and lets you know just how much I love you.

I sometimes ask God why he took you from me, but I know you were always created for Him and never for me. You were brought into this world only to be taken away, because God just couldn't wait another minute to hold you in His arms and delight in you, as I delighted in you when you were in my arms.

Though you never took a breath, you taught me more in your short life than the wisest wise man could have taught me in a lifetime.

Oh my son, The sacrifices I made to make sure you came into this world, only to have God take you away from me, would have been enough to crush any other man, but you were my biggest trial and my proudest moment. Your very existence showed so much to me, and even more to God.

The tears of joy I shed the first time I saw you are the same tears of joy I shed now as I tell you just how much I love you. I think about you all the time and wish you were here with me now. You should be taking your first steps right about now and I can see you take those steps in my mind.

As tiny as you were you had the ability to change a grown man. I was ready to take care of you and keep you safe from all harm. I was prepared to sacrifice everything to make sure you had all that you needed.

Even now I shed tears of joy knowing that we will one day be reunited and I will once again hold you in my arms.
For in that day that our God tells me, "well done my good and faithful servant," He will welcome me into His kingdom, and there God will hand you to me and I will once again hold you in my arms and I will shed those same tears of joy as I did the first time I saw you, and then we will be together forever.


       
With all the love I have for you my son,
Daddy
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Wildflowercffc
Thank you for your touching post. I cried because you completely identified with the thoughts and emotions I had with my stillborn son. I had him the day the before Mothers Day 19 years ago .... I still cry, but only for me. I know where he is. There is a song by Twila Paris that I love . . Visitor From Heaven ... If you haven't heard it you should get it. We played it at our son's burial. It helped me with closure (although it will never be fully closed until i embrace my Lord and then find and embrace my son) ...Thank you again for sharing your heart!
calicuz · 56-60, M
Believe it or not, this still makes me cry too when I read it. It is important for us to remember that our children are in the presence of the Lord now, and we will be reunited with them soon. They've just gone ahead of us, as so many family members have. I too feel there isn't full closure until I see our Lord and my son again on that great day. Thank you for taking the time to read my letter. God bless you. :)