I Am Fixing Myself

I just can't believe that there'll comes the day that I no longer feel this urge to feel that love again. I feel my heart is asking me to rest for a long time. It's just like I'm not attracted nor interested to anyone. This feeling is new and it surprises me that I will feel this way.

I'm this hopeless romantic and everything. But maybe because of what happened, automatically without me knowing my heart suddenly shut down. It needs repairs and full maintenance recovery I guess that's what my heart is asking me to do.

To be a cold heart for the time being to learn to be strong and tougher. Because she used to be vulnerable and naive before. She'd been hurt so much. That you can feel the pain so much.

Someday when my heart is ready, someday it no longer need to be afraid and scared. Someday when that day comes, I hope that it beats for the right person.