I Think Life Sucks

So I don’t have a job and can’t get a job so they shut my power off but when it was really cold they wouldn’t do it because they didn’t want me to freeze to death but now that it’s been 95 + degrees out for the past 5 days they don’t seem to mind if I die of heat exhaustion, I guess it’s ok if someone dies of heat exhaustion rather than freezing to death , I’ve called around to get help with my utilities but have been declined and rejected over and over I’m tired of it maybe I should just get it over with already.

My life seems to be falling apart all around me I had a couple friends but I’m not sure of that anymore there’s this women I like that says she likes me but she hasn’t called me and she said she would keep in contact with me so my love life is at a stand still or in check every , aspect of my life just sucks right now , and everything posative I do for others you’d think karma would bring it back posative right well it doesn’t seem so I just don’t know what to do anymore, where do I go from here.