I Have Something I Need to Say

I am disappearing from everything. Maybe 2 or 3 years. I'm can't pretend to think life is so beautiful and great for me. It never has been. I'm going to go and read books and learn deep states of meditation. I feel like I'd feel just as ignorant as I am now If I continue a regular life of seeing people all the time and doing things all the time. I have no real emotions anymore. It should be nothing but positive considering I already have basically nothing. I'll probably just find a spot over by the ocean and park my van, start growing all kinds of vegetables, run out of money and go into town only when I want to see people.I'm planning on getting a dog as well. My mind is exited to see what kind of changes I'll undertake. I'll eventually quit cigarettes and stop doing any drugs entirely. Not that I'm a hardcore addict to anything but I think being sober for the rest of my life will bring out any issues of discontent. I'll have the time and motivation to deal with it.
Wish me luck!