I Am Fed Up

I know EP is closing soon, but I have to get this off my chest. I've been feeling like crap ever since my ex broke up with me basically the same way he did the first time we dated...by blocking me on Facebook. Well this morning I found out that he's with another girl through Instagram. The thing that sucks about it well 1)being that he didn't even have the decency to tell me in person or even on the phone that we're done. 2)His so called friends are friends with me on Facebook & while feeling like crap thinking everything was my fault & losing the first person who showed me what love was (or at least what I thought it was) couldn't even give me a heads up. They acted like I was one of the crew/family & they opened their home to me, which I'm grateful for, but to comment on some of my more depressing posting asking if I'm ok knowing how I'm feeling & not telling me what's going on to me is a bunch of bull. Yeah I get that they're his friends, but don't act as if I'm one of his scummy, lying, cheating exes. He once told me that I was the best thing that happened to him, but then he says I'm acting just like his whorish exes just because I talk to other people online. If he can talk to all these other girls why can't I? It's like I'm sending dirty pics or dirty messages. I'm not like that...believe it or not but I actually cringe when people send dirty messages/pics & I block them. Point is if I'm with someone I'm 100% committed to them & if they can't understand why I talk to people online then I guess they have the right to walk away, but going off on me without listening to my side is messed up....sorry for the ranting....every so often the bottle gets so full things just pour out.