I Accept the Challenge

Ugh....it sucks not being able to talk as good as I write. I have a hard time speaking fluently in person. Its probably because I'm always so anxious around strangers. It sucks....but that's why you catch my weird @$$ talking to himself every now and then. I practice by singing along to music too. So far I've made some progress on improving my speech but there's still lots more to improve on. I assume I'm like this because I've been a silent loner for nearly my whole life. But I've been taking large leaps lately. I am making improvements. I got my first job at 19 years of age as a cashier at a busy grocery store. From there I reconnected with my best friend. Now I actually have 3 close friends. Now I'm back in school and I'm about to join a couple of clubs. Haha...I tend to forget that I recently faced some of my biggest fears. I do wish I hadn't been so scared in the past however. I missed out on lots of experiences because I was too much of a wuss. I believed I wasn't allowed to be happy at one point. I get disgusted just thinking about how low I got in the past. The past me is dramatically unlike the me today. I just have to get over this anxiety issue. I know some other major problem is coming my way after I get over this one. That's how life is.....you're constantly battling and overcoming challenges. Who knows what's next after my anxiety....maybe someone in my family dies, maybe I lose a finger, maybe I fail a class, maybe I get in a car crash. Its not my right to know. I don't get much of a choice. I expect the unexpected nowadays.