I'm trying to do math, but it's not working. The more I try to focus, the more my head spins and the harder it is to think. I have so much to do, but at the moment and for the past week or more I haven't done anything I need to. Random thought. It was one of the managers at work that told me his wife had ADHD too. He said he didn't understand how we couldn't just focus, but said it was because he didn't have it. I think that too. Why can't I just focus. People tell me I just need to sit down and do it. I'm going mad trying to sit here and do it. The same manager and I were talking about school. I told him I have trouble studying or doing some things if there is any noise and I can't focus on what I'm doing. He told me obviously, because I had ADHD. It clicked in my hand. It wasn't because there was something wrong with me, well it was ADHD. It was kinda like him saying I shouldn't feel bad about it. I have to go to the lab and then to work. I swear the more I try to focus on things, the more anxious I get. There was a book I read about how brain imaging works. I wonder what my brain looks like. It'd be so much easier if they used that for diagnosis as opposed to subjective. ADHD symptoms are also on different disorders. The doctor told me I had other ones too when I was a teenager.