I Am Sad and Lonely

I guess things are going along okay but I just feel so sad and alone. Maybe just residual stuff from the emptiness my cousin left after he supposedly jumped off that bridge and was never found.

I think about him every day at least once an hour. I miss him all the time. It's horrible to lose him. I thought I would drop dead after I heard they had no idea what happened to him.

My dad once told me losing a sibling is like losing a right arm. We weren't siblings but we were so close growing up and he stayed with me off and on when we lived in the city together.

I can't believe this past year has buried 5 family members.
I love you guys and I miss you.