I Hurt Someone That I Cared About

I Am Sorry...... This happened a while ago and even though I've apologized, I realize that I can never take back the harm & the hurt I caused you. I cannot bring him back to life, nor can I repair the damage done. I know this mistake cost me my one love, a son who will probably grow up never knowing I exist, and a loss of years of my freedom. So here I am 13 years later, unemployed and tired. I ask, have I paid enough yet? Or is there more yet I must pay? You know I am an ever loyal man who always pays his debts and if it is your will, then I will continue to take this. I loved you more than anyone ever in my life and your loss in my life left a gaping hole in my heart. I am sorry for what I did, but it was never intentional because you know I loved him as much as you. Maybe, I wasn't meant to be a father and a husband. I don't know, but I do know I am divorced from you and will never recover the life I once had. The happiness I once possessed. I can only wish you the best from your former love and hope life will treat you and our son well.