I Worry a Lot

I can't help it, I don't understand what it is that gets me so worried about people. I trust my true friends I care about them so much that I worry for their safety. Anyone who knows me knows that I would rip anyone's face of with my teeth and smash their face in, but I cannot help worry about my true friends. Like my heart just beats about a hundred thousand times a second and I feel my heart inside my stomach and lose breaths here and there. I feel all jittery and I start jumping around and letting my head go to different places, dark places where I have my most horrible fear and I get so lost in my head that it starts making me think its reality, I skip food and drop what I'm doing because I worry so much. My lungs just feel like they are being squished tight. It scares a lot of people who worry a lot but I can't help it. I don't mean to scare off anyone but I let my mind run to darkest place. I feel no comfort until I know that, that situation is cleared and everything is ok. And its hard not to feel this way and act like I'm ok and not worry. Again I don't mean to scare people off but I have had enough of hiding this feeling and it was time to write it down but I still worry so much that I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't just sit down and watch TV. Its so hard not to worry for me.