I Had An Affair

Yesterday was 20 years since I first laid eyes on the other man I love. He doesn't know it, he's a man.
He knows I love him though even after all this time. A long time ago he felt the same way but he wasn't mature enough to let us last, acted instead of talked, ripped my heart out as he went.
I want to see him, it's been over a year since I last did but I believe I will just get hurt again so I keep away.
Miss him so much though, I just want a hug more than anything.

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About2 · 61-69, M

I to let a lady go because i was not ready to settle down, but we met up later after we were both married to other people. . . . One kiss and whoopsssh, I was instantly transported back in time, it lasted 18 months and then she moved away and I would occasionally meet her.
It is now about 22 years since I last saw her, I chose not to see her again because it hurt too much when we had to part, and not living close meant we couldn't see each other often.

I can see her in my mind and remember so many of the things we said to each other, I often wonder if she thinks of me, I hope so.

Some people have a bond that never breaks, even if they can't be together.

DownTheStreet · 51-55, M

You have to pack those things in a certain place.

OtherRealMe · 46-50, F

I know, I did for so long, years. But they burst free again nearly 7 years ago and I haven't found the strength to bury it again, I feel more alive thinking about him.

Dorydog · 41-45, F

@OtherRealMe: go try and find him again?

OtherRealMe · 46-50, F

I can't, I'm married with kids, I'm not unhappy just not totally satisfied with life. If I could have both men & not hurt anyone I would

Flutterby

I am sorry you are hurting.
It's a hard thing to go through alone.
I can't imagine never seeing my MM again.

Babaloo64 · 41-45, M

Can I give u a hug?

SW-User

Cool story bro

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