Amen sister was in an abusive marriage too and am still strugling to cope with what happened to me

I always find it ironic that because you know the person or were in a relationship with someone - their crimes aren't called "attempted murder" or "assault with criminal intent". They call it "domestic violence" like it's some kind of normal thing for a domestic situation.

I understand this . Make yourself feel safe now in any way you can. I does get better . I’m very sorry .

I still have anxiety about it at times. We have children together, so I still have to deal with him

They will never be out of your head, that is the way your subconscious takes care of you. Always be aware and stay safe.