I Want to Feel Feminine
I Feel Strangely Manly.... I want soft, soft skin.. Without any blemishes or bumps... Or dark dots. I want to feel attractive.. And womanly. I want to turn heads sometimes.. With long, long hair.. And toned legs. Natural pink lips.. That can redden in a slight pinch.
I also would like my voice to be more.. I guess, something you'd want to wake up to. Although it's slow, it's so prematurely boyish. I want to hit the high notes like Imogen Heap. I want to sound pretty, at least.
I mean, I have the ingredients.. But so clueless on how to make the pasta of femininity. (Word?) I want to geel comfortable in this body, this casket. I am told I have a nice body... And I think it's so sweet of them to mention. But I want smaller arms. I've left out on myself.. I'm falling.
I want to wear a summer dress eventually. Show my legs.. Stretch marks that need going.. My legs need to stay shaved... My pits.. are still strange to me. Acne is still controlled. One day, after I grow into learning about me, it will turn out fine. My nose will be more normal.. My lips will be fuller.. My eyes.. The same hopefully. My hair, longer than ever.. Hopeful I'll stay short. My shoe size will have fitted in. And.. I'll walk like a woman, talk like a woman, and attract a few men along the way.
For now, I just feel odd.. It's all still finding a place.
I also would like my voice to be more.. I guess, something you'd want to wake up to. Although it's slow, it's so prematurely boyish. I want to hit the high notes like Imogen Heap. I want to sound pretty, at least.
I mean, I have the ingredients.. But so clueless on how to make the pasta of femininity. (Word?) I want to geel comfortable in this body, this casket. I am told I have a nice body... And I think it's so sweet of them to mention. But I want smaller arms. I've left out on myself.. I'm falling.
I want to wear a summer dress eventually. Show my legs.. Stretch marks that need going.. My legs need to stay shaved... My pits.. are still strange to me. Acne is still controlled. One day, after I grow into learning about me, it will turn out fine. My nose will be more normal.. My lips will be fuller.. My eyes.. The same hopefully. My hair, longer than ever.. Hopeful I'll stay short. My shoe size will have fitted in. And.. I'll walk like a woman, talk like a woman, and attract a few men along the way.
For now, I just feel odd.. It's all still finding a place.
22-25, F