I Think Some People Just Suck The Energy Out Of You

I used to be an "energy vampire" but have worked on myself a lot the past few years. I've become, or am still becoming the best I can be. It wasn't easy but I have found ways to find peace of mind within myself and hope, even when there is none.

I have something I must get off my chest. I have someone in my life that I love more than anything that just sucks all the energy from me. From the minute this person walks in the door I am tense, agitated, just off. The atmosphere changes with the stomping, slamming, cursing, rapid talking and bad attitude. My chest tightens and sometimes I get a headache. I am trying to not let it get to me but haven't been able to so far. The only thing that helps is physically removing myself from the room or the house.

On top of this, I feel horribly guilty for feeling this way. At this point I'm not sure how to handle it. At the risk of sounding dramatic, I feel as if it is killing my spirit and ruining my life. I also work with someone like this. Getting away from these people is not really an option.

I can't change these people. The only thing I can control is myself or my own mind. I will find a way to deal with these feelings somehow, someday.

I just really needed to get this out!! I am open to opinions or thoughts but more than anything this story is for me.

Blessings to anyone reading this and if you have your own experience and would like to share, my eyes and ears are open :)