I really do.

People always wish they had a better life, an easier life, a different life, but you cant just wish for it, one must take actions to better their lives and that is what I am going to be doing.

My life has been dark for a while, sure there have been moments of light, but not enough to dull out the darkness.

It's a scary thing, to change, but it is better than waking up every day wishing you hadn't, so things need to change.

Do you know how much easier it would be to change if one was healthy and had money...a lot easier, however just because one doesnt have those things doesnt mean it is impossible to change...it just means one has to work harder to change and that is something that I am willing to do...I just dont know where to start.

I have a job making okay money but still I am the only one working, I've a family of four, a baby and a toddler, neither of my children can be in day care due to health reasons, so I either pay an arm and a leg for child care of my husband stays home with the kids while I am working, granted I am working from home but they still need someone to care for them.

I dont go to church, even though I want to, I left the church a LONG time ago. When something really bad happened to me, and I lost my faith because what kind of God would let something so dark and vile and cruel happen to someone who had never hurt anyone.

I am overweight, as I've since having my baby about 7 months ago, however I need to see where my levels are as I've issues with my iron and sugar, and blood pressure so I have to know what kind of diet I can go on safely without putting my body in shock, so I've made an appointment to see a doctor to see what I can do to get healthy again.

My house is not the cleanest, in my home I've my small family of four, and two roommates who essentially are my family but are not the cleanest people or the most helpful around the house, but that is changing because I am sick of living that way, being too embarrassed to have anyone come over so that is changing, we are turning what was like living in a college dorm, into a home, and it can't happen overnight but it is happening.

So like I said one can wish with all the heart, and on every shooting star, but wishes take work, and at least I am headed in the right direction and am making those steps.