I Just Want to Let It All Out

I want to just say everything and let it out. But if I do that, the control that I have will be gone and I'll break. I hate holding this all in and not saying it but once I start I won't stop. I'll feel weak and I hate it, and you would too. It'll be non<x>stop and I'll have to think of all that I try not to to stay strong and controlled, if I lost the control, I'll hurt whoever is around me and I can't do that. I'm sorry