I Have Been Homeless

*Trigger warning*

I am really scared because my lease is ending and I am on the brink of homelessness. My awful job fired me even though I tried explaining to them my health related issues. I am going to end up living in my car in a week or so, and I have never felt so hopeless. My dad won't or can't help me and I do not want to tell my mom anything. I have been trying to look for jobs but I do not know what to do.

I been looking at transitional homes, but the reviews are bad. I got in contact with a therapist, but ever since I lost my job I have been applying. I don't want to wake up, I lie in my bed all day thinking of a suicide plan and ways to escape. I feel worse than I felt when I was in high school. I feel like I can't handle being a adult, and I have been cutting again. And I have been crying all day. Thanks for reading this.