I Am Completely Hopeless At Human Relationships
I have Aspergers syndrome. But I don't think that's why I'm so hopeless with people, I can't make friends because I get too anxious plus it's difficult to make friends when there's nowhere to meet people I don't work or study so it's virtually impossible to meet people, in a friendly setting, and obviously you don't go to clubs to meet people or alone as it's just terrifying. I think I'm too nice so people walk all over me metaphorically. Like they'll ask me for favours and I suppose I'm so keen to have friends I just do it and then once it's done they f*ck off! Not only that but I suppose I take too long when it comes to romantic relationships. There were two girls, Cal, and Jas, and Jas and I really like eachother but I suppose I've just been panicking we've been dating for 5 months still haven't done anything but kiss which is fine I don't mind waiting, we were meant to go on a date on Saturday and my friend accidentally smashed my phone, so now I don't have her number and I can't contact her and I'm so irritated because I really like her but I don't know where she lives she doesn't know any of my friends and I don't have her on Facebook or know her surname, so I f*cked that up. And then Cas, well that was completely my fault, we met had a one night stand I really liked her but she lives too far so I stopped talking to her for a bit she started messaging me again saying she was coming to my neck of the woods for a bit, so she came to mine we slept together again stated talking and I really like her but she told me she really liked me and would I consider doing a long distance relationship and I said no. And this evening she messaged me and boom she's in a relationship and I'm completely gutted but it was inevitable beautiful sexy and smart doesn't usually have the words single after it.