I Have Ednos

I was just diagnosed with EDNOS last week... I am guilty of self harming using food. Restricting myself to one small meal a day because maybe my mom would be happier with me if I was skinnier. There are days I can't leave my room because I feel so fat and ugly the idea of people seeing me is horrifying and I work 2 jobs. I am having to get a doctor's note today so I don't get suspended from one of my jobs. I also work at a restaurant, but because I also have IBS and I can't most of the food at the place with is good because I've been known to binge eat at work at other restaurants I've worked at. I'm incapable of purging without epicak. So yeah... I'm scared. But I have a fiance who is by my side and is going to help me fight this. It's nice not being alone.