I Cant Stop Overthinking

It is interesting to watch my mind slowly degrade. Degrade as in, let the barrier between thoughts,feelings,memories lower. They all mix, they all become one. It becomes increasingly more overwhelming, because at the same time I'm frantically searching for a way to stop it! Little do I know, I can't stop it. Only one can calm the flood, only one can make me at peace, once they're gone; even temporarily I loose sight of said person and plunge back into the depths of my own hell, waiting for said person to return to repeat the process. It is interesting how someone who prides himself on being able to control his emotions, cannot do it without a crutch. However, it is not right to assign an ob<x>ject to a person. A person I hold near and dear, who makes me, be me. Who helps me much more than it seems, I try to keep my own misery inside, sometimes it slips out. This is a long drawn out train of thought, but its keeping my brain occupied and making me tired, which I cannot do at the moment.