I Think My Mother Hates Me

The Little Girl She Never Wanted.... During the first three years of my life, my family was whole. My birth parents were married and everything was good. Then my mother fell in love with another man, and my parents promptly divorced. Now, who gets custody of 3-year-old me? Being the age I was, I can now only rely on stories and hope they are true. In divorce court, the judge asked my mother 3 times if she wanted custody of me. 3 times she said no. My dad took me in and treated me like gold. I wish my story ended there. After 2 more years battling my mother for child support, the judge also declared that she be required to see me at least twice a month. It seemed my dad had to drag out every penny she owed him. It was a never-ending struggle. So much a penny-pincher was she, that at one point she actually billed my dad for taking me to burger king. This wouldn't have been so bad except for the fact that she was making a whopping amount more money than him. But wait there's more. Now that I am grown, she owes him no more money, so now the struggle has fallen on my head: She doesn't even call just to say hi. We haven't actually spoken since September of 2011. This is not because we are on bad terms, but because I am a bad correspondence and I am beginning to become certain that she's never really wanted anything to do with me. She didn't call me on Christmas of that year or on my birthday which was 2 weeks later. So, I set up a little test. What if I gave her the same treatment? I didn't call her on mother's day or her birthday of 2012 which were right next to each other on the calendar, and wouldn't cha know it? She unfriended me on facebook. As if I was the bad guy. Now, it is all too clear to me that all this time she was only waiting for an excuse to close all communication with the only child she ever had.