I Have Been Bullied

I've been bullied pretty much my whole life. Going way back to pre-k is when it kind of started or maybe it was just because the guy liked me, which indecently when I started high school guess who had just transferred in & confessed he liked me...yup that same little guy in pre-k....only he wasn't the same at all...he turned into a nerdy looking fellow. I seriously had no idea he was that we had already knew each other until he over heard a conversation I was having & jumped in when I said the name of my pre-k....Sorry lost my train of thought there. When I first moved into the area things were pretty good I had friends that looked after me....well I kind of stole my brother's friends, but that's what little sisters do =) Than by the time I got to third grade everything changed. I started seeing how people were really like. There was the main group of 12 which I was part of until we got a new kid & my best friend lost her spot. I gave up that for a few reasons 1:They were bullies 2:They dropped their friends as soon as a new kid showed up 3:They didn't care when you spent your lunch money to buy them extra milk or ice cream. 4:They cheat off you on tests & if caught they'll point the figure at you. 5:Girls had to do whatever all the other girls were doing & if you went to hang with the guys during recess you were a target. I used to think that we were all good kids at my elementary & for the most part we were (the older kids to a few of us in my class after that everything went south.) Next came middle school & that's where it really started. I got targeted because I didn't talk, I got good grades (up until I started slaking, but that's because I knew everything already & we've only been learning the same stuff over & over so I got bored) I'm a country kid & country kids got picked on (until high school when everyone suddenly wanted to be a part of the FFA & dress/act all country & I was the poser?) That brings me to high school where it got to the point where I developed extreme depression & didn't want to go to school anymore then again it wasn't better at home; the neighborhood made up a quarter of the bullies at the school & I no longer had those older kids by my side. I got threatened even more than before daily & it got physical once, but it's cool no harm done & I got to look like a panda for a few hours. The bullying has subsided a bit since than...I still get the occasional nasty fb message or hear an old nasty rumor going around. It's sad that most of the bullying came from the younger kids, but everyone knew I couldn't talk/standup for myself so I was an easy target.