I Feel Detached From the World Sometimes
Warning! If you hate dramatisations of one's own life, then feel free to pass on by, I would, personally. If you don't need Someone else's life story in yours, I don't blame you.
I feel detached from this world, for the past couple of years I have just thought the way everyone around me is going to get the best out of their lives is if I wasn't it anymore... I don't mean I was that important in their lives just that they shouldn't feel the need to include me in anything they were doing for example heading on nights out(gigs) and outings, so I just dropped the communication with them all... Them all being my friends, and rightfully so they broke communication with me... Well now I don't know if I'm any better or worse off for doing, but I think I did the right thing.
I know I'm just trailing off on a bit of a random vent, but I mean, they were the ones dragging me up off my arse to do stuff with them. And I just feel like they deserve better than to be dragging "people" like myself all around the place. Sure I didn't like what I was doing at first but when I got into it was fun... I feel like I lost that fun aspect to my life too, along with losing contact with old friends.
The thing is now I'm struggling to make connections with the new people I meet in my life, I feel like I don't know what I am doing when meeting new people or how to talk them. There is a lot of confusion on my part, and now I feel like I'm sending the wrong signals to everyone I bump into now. And it's this confusion that's leading me to feel this way, because of it I feel like I have no response, which makes me less acceptable in society because they think I'm stupid or dumb. I just feel like I'm at a loss the whole time.
I feel detached from this world, for the past couple of years I have just thought the way everyone around me is going to get the best out of their lives is if I wasn't it anymore... I don't mean I was that important in their lives just that they shouldn't feel the need to include me in anything they were doing for example heading on nights out(gigs) and outings, so I just dropped the communication with them all... Them all being my friends, and rightfully so they broke communication with me... Well now I don't know if I'm any better or worse off for doing, but I think I did the right thing.
I know I'm just trailing off on a bit of a random vent, but I mean, they were the ones dragging me up off my arse to do stuff with them. And I just feel like they deserve better than to be dragging "people" like myself all around the place. Sure I didn't like what I was doing at first but when I got into it was fun... I feel like I lost that fun aspect to my life too, along with losing contact with old friends.
The thing is now I'm struggling to make connections with the new people I meet in my life, I feel like I don't know what I am doing when meeting new people or how to talk them. There is a lot of confusion on my part, and now I feel like I'm sending the wrong signals to everyone I bump into now. And it's this confusion that's leading me to feel this way, because of it I feel like I have no response, which makes me less acceptable in society because they think I'm stupid or dumb. I just feel like I'm at a loss the whole time.
