I Am Alive
My heart just kickstarted.
I've been reading The Four Hour Work Week by Tim Ferriss. Just read another chapter now, I was dead tired but knew m brain would race if I didn't do something.
I pulled a few chin ups when I noticed the park lost its swings. I walked over and noticed the highest bar was the perfect height for me, and just started. Killed my abs lol.
I've been talking to a couple of the girls from work on Facebook a bit, trying to get some depth out of them but scaring them off/failing. Then a couple of the guys surprised me and I have a decision whether to take up weed and go down the rabbit hole or not. Just go while they get high and stay out of it, joining in the convos?
But, just then, I lay drifting off and my eyes suddenly opened wide. My heart kickstarted. I'm alive again. My emotional centre restarted at last. I'm loved enough, my fiance is finally on the same page regarding our finances and pretty much our lives and life decisions.
My boss got a hammering after a customer complained to head office about his incessant ranting at us kitchen staff from the till area. So he's no longer much of a concern.
I feel *alive*. Ready to build up my body and mind together and choose what is next. No longer am I suffering without end.
Life.
I've been reading The Four Hour Work Week by Tim Ferriss. Just read another chapter now, I was dead tired but knew m brain would race if I didn't do something.
I pulled a few chin ups when I noticed the park lost its swings. I walked over and noticed the highest bar was the perfect height for me, and just started. Killed my abs lol.
I've been talking to a couple of the girls from work on Facebook a bit, trying to get some depth out of them but scaring them off/failing. Then a couple of the guys surprised me and I have a decision whether to take up weed and go down the rabbit hole or not. Just go while they get high and stay out of it, joining in the convos?
But, just then, I lay drifting off and my eyes suddenly opened wide. My heart kickstarted. I'm alive again. My emotional centre restarted at last. I'm loved enough, my fiance is finally on the same page regarding our finances and pretty much our lives and life decisions.
My boss got a hammering after a customer complained to head office about his incessant ranting at us kitchen staff from the till area. So he's no longer much of a concern.
I feel *alive*. Ready to build up my body and mind together and choose what is next. No longer am I suffering without end.
Life.
36-40, M