I Remember My First Time

this title does not apply at all

Random thoughts would have been better. . But this site won’t allow me to create my own title. I get frustrated and give up and just want to write.

I have fond memories that sneak up when I least expect it. Here’s one. I’ll pretend I’m writing to you.

You were a nervous man. You grabbed me constantly thinking you were saving me from harm.(causing me serious missteps and imbalance, and odd fright for nothing)

I’ll hear or feel a line or a movie that reminds me of your unusual obsessions with sci fi. You would replay 100 times.

You once told me you lived Your life in constant fear. I felt sad for you. Your mother was afraid you would die like her firstborn. And she warned you to death. And you carried those fears around as if they represented love.

I hope you’ve grown out of your fears and are able to just enjoy having fun. Fearlessly.