I Remember My First Time
I told myself I'd have the discipline to document the recent events somewhere so here I am! At first I thought I might just use my diary or just write it down on my computer but someone might find it going through my stuff so I thought I'd use this site for just the purpose it was created for!
As some of you might already know, I've been seeing someone, or rather I managed to finally ask out my crush and it seemed that he felt the same!
Or so it seems since we saw each other 4 times in the past five days!
Not too hard considering we live like half an hour apart if I use my bike!
Anyhow, this is something I really wanted to share, to actually just pour out all my experiences that night so that I can document it! And maybe get some helpful tips along the way!
But I'm digressing, you might know what this story's all about judging by the title, huh?
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I visited Lucas yesterday, or rather he invited me over once again, seeing that his parents work a lot and he's usually home alone.
As a recap, the last few times we met were absolutely wonderful! He's the first boy I actually got romantically involved with and every minute so far has felt so unreal, like a dream.
We spent a lot of time just talking and getting to know each other more, having had several instances of just snuggling up to each other and enjoy each other's company.
But yesterday was different, we've been dating for about a week now and after cooking some dinner and starting to watch some more episodes of this series we both love. (It's this supernatural crime show, Grimm! Highly recommend it!) We once again started to just cuddle.
But this time things progressed faster and it wasn't long until I felt Lucas' hands become more daring and explore my body, slipping underneath my shirt and jeans to get a feel of me. And I let things progress that way! Now that I think of it, I wouldn't have been able to do so just a few weeks back.
But it felt good, I wanted it.
He felt nice too, he's a player in the soccer team and his body was so warm and firm, I couldn't help myself but to push against him as we were just lying there on the couch.
I would have been completely content just letting things stay that way for the rest of the evening but after a while he did ask if I wanted to take things to his bedroom.
Which I did, oh I did!
Lucas is so kind, so gentle. My classmates told me to be careful, that he might be a jerk and that he'd just hang out with me because he thinks I'm attractive. That I'm too naive.
But Lucas isn't like that! We got unddressed and I was so self conscious about my own body, what if he didn't like me underneath my clothes? Did I really look good to him? My fears were not only proven wrong, but got just obliterated as he approved of it!
He himself is anything other than average looking too! Or at least he is to me! I don't know, I have not a lot of experience with that sort of thing XD
It wasn't long until we got unto the bed and he just let me lie down as we just started kissing.
At first he just suckled on my lips and let his hands wander down my sides, and I just felt like melting away in his arms. His hands were so good.
But he'd come to kiss down my neck and started to work his way down, and I felt so embarassed, like some cold fish who was just wriggling there.
I felt I should have done something there too, but it seemed like he was completely content just exploring me instead!
When he did kiss my lower bits though, it was embarassing and kinda weird, I wasn't expecting something so intense when he suckled on there. It was too much so I sat up and asked if I could do return the favor.
In hindsight, it was probably me being too scared of disappointing to just lie there and let him do things, especially since he went right for it and I felt too embarassed about it.
Thankfully he seemed to understand and just sat up on the sheets, stroking my cheek and just smiling at me, that sweet, reassuring one.
I can't believe I'm the one he smiles at like that!
Anyways, I honestly didn't really know all that much of how to do it so I just rolled on my tummy and leaned closer to him.
The first thing I noticed was that he actually seemed to have shaven down there, It seemed fresh too! He expected things to go that way? did he do it for me?
Whatever, whatever, oof, I'm getting distracted!
So I took his shaft into my hand, it was hot and pulsed! I was heating up, that was sooo embarassing, I don't know how I must have looked but he actually had to laugh, not bursting out and mocking, but more in an amused, caring way?
I did start kissing his tip thoug.
It was salty and warm, I don't know what I expected but it wasn't much different than just licking a finger.
He approved of it, or so I think as he did actually help me hold my hair so it didn't just fall into my face! :)
I continued licking up and down his shaft, just trying to find something he liked. And he was silent except some low moans so I went the next step and licked his tip before letting it slide down my tongue into my mouth.
You know that feeling how you suck on a lollipop or finger, like, sucking the air out of your mouth to create this sucktion?
I tried that and brushed my tongue over his tip and he did actually seem to really, really like it! That was such a relief, and a huuuge ego boost to be completely honest!
I then started actually moving my head up and down but never quite managed to take him into my mouth entirely.
He then asked something really weird, apparently he wanted me to suck on his package too.
I didn't know boys also liked that but it was Lucas so how could I actually say no to him in that moment.
It was a strange sensation. there are like two spheres inside of that sac of skin and I think that's really funny, don't know why!
So I started suckling on one of them and he just reared back and started breathing heavily, so at first I though I struck a nerve or something and hurt him but he quickly told me to continue and that I was doing great!
Boy, what a relief! That would have been emabarrassing.
SO as I continued I actually started stroking his thing a bit and he just let me do that for a while.
Until he just groaned and, uh...
Just came on my face.
Honestly, I wasn't prepared for that.
Not at all!
The stuff got everywhere xD
It was all sticky, hot and kinda gooey and he seemed more embarassed about that than me as I was evidently weirded out by it.
He apologized but told me I did an amazing job!
It was easier than I had thought!
Then again, in that moment awkwardness was more dominant than anything else so I told him I needed to go clean myself up.
That stuff's so weird to wash off though!
It's so slimey and it took me so long until I felt like it was all gone!
When I got back to his room he was lying on the sheets, having waited for me.
It was kinda funny to see that though! Him lying there and his thing just being erect there, leaking some of that stuff unto his tummy XD
Anyhow, in that moment laughing about it wasn't really what I was up to as I just lied down next to him and let him kiss me again.
I felt his thing press against my thigh, still hot and gooey at its tip.
I think he had taken the time I used to get cleaned up to plan how to proceed because the next thing I knew was him just resting over me, hands next to my head as he leaned in to kiss me and ask if I was ready for more.
Of course I was, but only after I told him to actually use a condom!
It was awkward and I was scared it might ruin the mood but he actually had some stored right under his pillow.
He was DEFINITELY prepared! >_>
next thing I knew was him resting his tip against my nether regions.
I was scared, excited, completely lost in the feeling but I wanted this!
He did take it slow and I am so grateful for it!
Slowly he'd press forward and it was such a great experience!
It was weird at first with since my mind was racing but slowly it started to feel so good as he entered me, I lost myself in his eyes as soon his own hips pressed against my own.
I couldn't believe it myself, heart to heart, lip to lip.
I can't possibly describe this sensation, it was indescribable! I had wanted Lucas to be mine since that time at the P.E event, but never had I thought he'd be mine like this!
He started to move and when he drew back I couldn't help but wrap my legs around him, it felt so good when he sunk right back in.
He took it slowl lovingly, his hands would come to rest against my back as he'd slowly build up some speed.
But I didn't come.
I don't know why, it might have been because I was thinking too much? Maybe it was just stress, but despite how good it felt and how much I wanted it I never quite got pushed over the edge like I got myself...
I think Lucas noticed it because even after he came and remained inside me, thrusting into me and kissing me, he would eventually pull back out and ask me if there was something else I liked.
And there was a thing actually.
For the past few years, since I started touching myself, I always enjoyed playing with my butt. I thoguht it was just because I was ticklish at first but in the past month or two I did start experimenting more.
And I thought it wasn't something I'd enjoy at all! But that's a story for another day, or rather not, it's kinda embarassing! XD
Anyhow, I thought it might be something worth saying and I did not want to disappoint Lucas so I explained it to him.
I just sat there, knees to my chest, for about ten minutes, asking him about it and all.
He did just follow it, smiling and nodding. And after I was done he just kissed me and told me to get on my tummy.
just like that.
No questions asked and all!
I had imagined he'd laugh about it, or make fun of me for it!
Instead he got something out of his drawer and told me to raise my butt towards him.
And he kissed it! I can't believe he'd do that but I just had to bury my face in the pillows after that.
But not for long since the next thing I felt was something cold, a liquid, wash over my butt!
Followed by Lucas' finger starting to apply it by stroking my butt!
it was weird at first but I really enjoyed him touching me there, slowly he'd work around my muscle and soon I felt him press a finger into it!
It was entirely different than when I did it myself!
it was so extremely embarassing and still, it felt so good to me! It was exciting and my heart beat so fast!
He'd continue playing with my butt for a while but after a while I felt his hands rest on my hips and his thing against my entry.
He was so sweet, asking me to tell him what I liked, what hurt and what he should do.
Him entering me was different than before.
It felt a lot bigger! And the sensation of fullness was different too! It hurt a bit at first but just like before he was slow.
I think the liquid helped a lot! I only used my own spit in the past but this stuff made it really easy for him to slide in!
He'd slowly build up a rhythm after his hips met my cheeks and I told him to continue!
It was so intense and I felt so extremely embarassaed and good at the same time!
My fingers would find my nether regions too as I'd help myself, trying to cum for him.
I didn't want him to feel bad about not succeeding to make me do so but for some reason this time it happened!
I think it was both how lovingly careful he was, he was slower than before and me adding to it with my own touches, less direct than when he tried kissing me down there, helped a lot! His hands would come to stroke my back and this sensation would spread through my legs and my heart beat faster!
I don't know if I ever felt something like that but the release I had was so much greater than I had thought!
I sunk into the sheets and he'd continue to thrust into my butt, it felt kinda numb and tingly but I was too happy to be bothered by it until he came too, pullig out and lying down next to me!
I rolled on top of him and rested my head on his chest before kissing him.
And I'd end this recollection of this night here.
What ensued was a lot of explaining, a lot of awkwardness and just a few hours of sleep until I had to get home and preapre for school!
As some of you might already know, I've been seeing someone, or rather I managed to finally ask out my crush and it seemed that he felt the same!
Or so it seems since we saw each other 4 times in the past five days!
Not too hard considering we live like half an hour apart if I use my bike!
Anyhow, this is something I really wanted to share, to actually just pour out all my experiences that night so that I can document it! And maybe get some helpful tips along the way!
But I'm digressing, you might know what this story's all about judging by the title, huh?
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I visited Lucas yesterday, or rather he invited me over once again, seeing that his parents work a lot and he's usually home alone.
As a recap, the last few times we met were absolutely wonderful! He's the first boy I actually got romantically involved with and every minute so far has felt so unreal, like a dream.
We spent a lot of time just talking and getting to know each other more, having had several instances of just snuggling up to each other and enjoy each other's company.
But yesterday was different, we've been dating for about a week now and after cooking some dinner and starting to watch some more episodes of this series we both love. (It's this supernatural crime show, Grimm! Highly recommend it!) We once again started to just cuddle.
But this time things progressed faster and it wasn't long until I felt Lucas' hands become more daring and explore my body, slipping underneath my shirt and jeans to get a feel of me. And I let things progress that way! Now that I think of it, I wouldn't have been able to do so just a few weeks back.
But it felt good, I wanted it.
He felt nice too, he's a player in the soccer team and his body was so warm and firm, I couldn't help myself but to push against him as we were just lying there on the couch.
I would have been completely content just letting things stay that way for the rest of the evening but after a while he did ask if I wanted to take things to his bedroom.
Which I did, oh I did!
Lucas is so kind, so gentle. My classmates told me to be careful, that he might be a jerk and that he'd just hang out with me because he thinks I'm attractive. That I'm too naive.
But Lucas isn't like that! We got unddressed and I was so self conscious about my own body, what if he didn't like me underneath my clothes? Did I really look good to him? My fears were not only proven wrong, but got just obliterated as he approved of it!
He himself is anything other than average looking too! Or at least he is to me! I don't know, I have not a lot of experience with that sort of thing XD
It wasn't long until we got unto the bed and he just let me lie down as we just started kissing.
At first he just suckled on my lips and let his hands wander down my sides, and I just felt like melting away in his arms. His hands were so good.
But he'd come to kiss down my neck and started to work his way down, and I felt so embarassed, like some cold fish who was just wriggling there.
I felt I should have done something there too, but it seemed like he was completely content just exploring me instead!
When he did kiss my lower bits though, it was embarassing and kinda weird, I wasn't expecting something so intense when he suckled on there. It was too much so I sat up and asked if I could do return the favor.
In hindsight, it was probably me being too scared of disappointing to just lie there and let him do things, especially since he went right for it and I felt too embarassed about it.
Thankfully he seemed to understand and just sat up on the sheets, stroking my cheek and just smiling at me, that sweet, reassuring one.
I can't believe I'm the one he smiles at like that!
Anyways, I honestly didn't really know all that much of how to do it so I just rolled on my tummy and leaned closer to him.
The first thing I noticed was that he actually seemed to have shaven down there, It seemed fresh too! He expected things to go that way? did he do it for me?
Whatever, whatever, oof, I'm getting distracted!
So I took his shaft into my hand, it was hot and pulsed! I was heating up, that was sooo embarassing, I don't know how I must have looked but he actually had to laugh, not bursting out and mocking, but more in an amused, caring way?
I did start kissing his tip thoug.
It was salty and warm, I don't know what I expected but it wasn't much different than just licking a finger.
He approved of it, or so I think as he did actually help me hold my hair so it didn't just fall into my face! :)
I continued licking up and down his shaft, just trying to find something he liked. And he was silent except some low moans so I went the next step and licked his tip before letting it slide down my tongue into my mouth.
You know that feeling how you suck on a lollipop or finger, like, sucking the air out of your mouth to create this sucktion?
I tried that and brushed my tongue over his tip and he did actually seem to really, really like it! That was such a relief, and a huuuge ego boost to be completely honest!
I then started actually moving my head up and down but never quite managed to take him into my mouth entirely.
He then asked something really weird, apparently he wanted me to suck on his package too.
I didn't know boys also liked that but it was Lucas so how could I actually say no to him in that moment.
It was a strange sensation. there are like two spheres inside of that sac of skin and I think that's really funny, don't know why!
So I started suckling on one of them and he just reared back and started breathing heavily, so at first I though I struck a nerve or something and hurt him but he quickly told me to continue and that I was doing great!
Boy, what a relief! That would have been emabarrassing.
SO as I continued I actually started stroking his thing a bit and he just let me do that for a while.
Until he just groaned and, uh...
Just came on my face.
Honestly, I wasn't prepared for that.
Not at all!
The stuff got everywhere xD
It was all sticky, hot and kinda gooey and he seemed more embarassed about that than me as I was evidently weirded out by it.
He apologized but told me I did an amazing job!
It was easier than I had thought!
Then again, in that moment awkwardness was more dominant than anything else so I told him I needed to go clean myself up.
That stuff's so weird to wash off though!
It's so slimey and it took me so long until I felt like it was all gone!
When I got back to his room he was lying on the sheets, having waited for me.
It was kinda funny to see that though! Him lying there and his thing just being erect there, leaking some of that stuff unto his tummy XD
Anyhow, in that moment laughing about it wasn't really what I was up to as I just lied down next to him and let him kiss me again.
I felt his thing press against my thigh, still hot and gooey at its tip.
I think he had taken the time I used to get cleaned up to plan how to proceed because the next thing I knew was him just resting over me, hands next to my head as he leaned in to kiss me and ask if I was ready for more.
Of course I was, but only after I told him to actually use a condom!
It was awkward and I was scared it might ruin the mood but he actually had some stored right under his pillow.
He was DEFINITELY prepared! >_>
next thing I knew was him resting his tip against my nether regions.
I was scared, excited, completely lost in the feeling but I wanted this!
He did take it slow and I am so grateful for it!
Slowly he'd press forward and it was such a great experience!
It was weird at first with since my mind was racing but slowly it started to feel so good as he entered me, I lost myself in his eyes as soon his own hips pressed against my own.
I couldn't believe it myself, heart to heart, lip to lip.
I can't possibly describe this sensation, it was indescribable! I had wanted Lucas to be mine since that time at the P.E event, but never had I thought he'd be mine like this!
He started to move and when he drew back I couldn't help but wrap my legs around him, it felt so good when he sunk right back in.
He took it slowl lovingly, his hands would come to rest against my back as he'd slowly build up some speed.
But I didn't come.
I don't know why, it might have been because I was thinking too much? Maybe it was just stress, but despite how good it felt and how much I wanted it I never quite got pushed over the edge like I got myself...
I think Lucas noticed it because even after he came and remained inside me, thrusting into me and kissing me, he would eventually pull back out and ask me if there was something else I liked.
And there was a thing actually.
For the past few years, since I started touching myself, I always enjoyed playing with my butt. I thoguht it was just because I was ticklish at first but in the past month or two I did start experimenting more.
And I thought it wasn't something I'd enjoy at all! But that's a story for another day, or rather not, it's kinda embarassing! XD
Anyhow, I thought it might be something worth saying and I did not want to disappoint Lucas so I explained it to him.
I just sat there, knees to my chest, for about ten minutes, asking him about it and all.
He did just follow it, smiling and nodding. And after I was done he just kissed me and told me to get on my tummy.
just like that.
No questions asked and all!
I had imagined he'd laugh about it, or make fun of me for it!
Instead he got something out of his drawer and told me to raise my butt towards him.
And he kissed it! I can't believe he'd do that but I just had to bury my face in the pillows after that.
But not for long since the next thing I felt was something cold, a liquid, wash over my butt!
Followed by Lucas' finger starting to apply it by stroking my butt!
it was weird at first but I really enjoyed him touching me there, slowly he'd work around my muscle and soon I felt him press a finger into it!
It was entirely different than when I did it myself!
it was so extremely embarassing and still, it felt so good to me! It was exciting and my heart beat so fast!
He'd continue playing with my butt for a while but after a while I felt his hands rest on my hips and his thing against my entry.
He was so sweet, asking me to tell him what I liked, what hurt and what he should do.
Him entering me was different than before.
It felt a lot bigger! And the sensation of fullness was different too! It hurt a bit at first but just like before he was slow.
I think the liquid helped a lot! I only used my own spit in the past but this stuff made it really easy for him to slide in!
He'd slowly build up a rhythm after his hips met my cheeks and I told him to continue!
It was so intense and I felt so extremely embarassaed and good at the same time!
My fingers would find my nether regions too as I'd help myself, trying to cum for him.
I didn't want him to feel bad about not succeeding to make me do so but for some reason this time it happened!
I think it was both how lovingly careful he was, he was slower than before and me adding to it with my own touches, less direct than when he tried kissing me down there, helped a lot! His hands would come to stroke my back and this sensation would spread through my legs and my heart beat faster!
I don't know if I ever felt something like that but the release I had was so much greater than I had thought!
I sunk into the sheets and he'd continue to thrust into my butt, it felt kinda numb and tingly but I was too happy to be bothered by it until he came too, pullig out and lying down next to me!
I rolled on top of him and rested my head on his chest before kissing him.
And I'd end this recollection of this night here.
What ensued was a lot of explaining, a lot of awkwardness and just a few hours of sleep until I had to get home and preapre for school!
22-25, F
