I just had a huge blow up with my mother. I do have a hostory of mental health issues, and that does play in here. I have been dealing with some BS related to my futurue for about a year now. The past few days I admit, I let it get to me. My poor friends know this. After talking to some of them I called my mom, wanting to share what I'm learning about plan B for my life. We
We start a conversation, then I get upset and am crying, trying to focus on my breathing.
She continues to play devil's advocate.
I let her know that is not helpful for me right now.
She claims I am being defensive and she is helping me see reality (essentially)
Something upsets me again, and I ask her to please, just listen. Just let me say whatever I am feeling.
Her comment is that is not really helpful to me, because I can't let myself get to this point all the time.
And how it's not fair to her for me to tell her she needs to stop talking. . (I ask politely)
And if she can't talk, than neither should I be able to. We did not finish the conversation. She had things to talk with me about. But she realized it was not the time. (Yes, my mental illnesses came up.... yes I am being treated...)