Well, because I know you believe in God (as implied in your post). You just need to trust in the promise He gave when He said He has a plan for you to prosper and be happy. If you can really trust that and believe He will lead you to a life you may haven't thought of but will love, you'll be in good shape!
Family, that love, is my rock. It's where my strength comes from and it's where their strength comes from too. We hold each other up together. Sometimes I forget that I hold them up, too and I think I'm dragging them down. But they somehow always find a way remind me I'm their rock too just when I need it. I don't know what I'd do without them. I'm sure you're your family's rock too, and you hold them up and support them more than you know. It might not be a "normal" life but it's YOUR life, and there's so much you can do with it to spread that love and that strength.
Hello again silentwhisper . Im so glad you found the right Way for yourself ! Life isnt fair but you hold the key to your happiness. Its Making me so Happy to read your Post . It may Sound stupid but you should write a letter to yourself so you can always read and Remind yourself Why you Now Feel like you do . Best wishes and Stay strong, Kristof