I Am An Outcast
Completely... i am an outcast of the human race but the one that i've been thinking of lately was how i am a male outcast..
i never had a father figure, my dad was never really there for me and i never had any of the so called male bonding..at school, i was an outcast, no one liked me at all, and my few friends were mostly girls. thats why on here, most of my friends are women. i feel more comfortable around them than i do with guys.,while i still am a male, i do not feel like i am part of the social group, oh sure when i left that school and moved to another one i had male friends but i never felt a part of them really. i guess i helped make myself into one then really..
i'm 17 now and i still have never had a father figure and i've never felt any diffrent, while i hang out with guys i dont tell them how i feel or really connect with them like i do with girls. and even then i am not like, a woman trapped in a mans body or anything, i just feel more comfortable around them. i also have no wish really to become a part of the whole male group. and i am glad in some ways that i am more comfortable around women, because i respect them and i appricate them, i hate seeing them get hurt, it makes me feel really angry when my friends get hurt by idoit guys...even though i can be an idoit myself. i think i am a better person in being an outcast though i feel like i will never enter into manhood.
i never had a father figure, my dad was never really there for me and i never had any of the so called male bonding..at school, i was an outcast, no one liked me at all, and my few friends were mostly girls. thats why on here, most of my friends are women. i feel more comfortable around them than i do with guys.,while i still am a male, i do not feel like i am part of the social group, oh sure when i left that school and moved to another one i had male friends but i never felt a part of them really. i guess i helped make myself into one then really..
i'm 17 now and i still have never had a father figure and i've never felt any diffrent, while i hang out with guys i dont tell them how i feel or really connect with them like i do with girls. and even then i am not like, a woman trapped in a mans body or anything, i just feel more comfortable around them. i also have no wish really to become a part of the whole male group. and i am glad in some ways that i am more comfortable around women, because i respect them and i appricate them, i hate seeing them get hurt, it makes me feel really angry when my friends get hurt by idoit guys...even though i can be an idoit myself. i think i am a better person in being an outcast though i feel like i will never enter into manhood.
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