It's sad what ive become

I've become a sad, angry old drunk. I guess I went on Facebook live about a week ago and was laughing,ranting, eating nuggets and making a fool out of myself. A good friend told me I did this. He showed me a bit he recorded and I'm embarrassed. I'm still embarrassed.

Today at work I was hungover and in a bad mood. I got really irritated over something and went on a rant about it. My outbursts are growing and becoming more frequent.