I Am Having Friend Problems
So in a previous post I wrote about the boy I love. Its been 4 months since he broke up with me and I'm trying to forget him but every waking moment of mine is spent just thinking about him. I've been diagnosed with depression recently and it's something that I'm coping with alone. I think it's always been there but having Dakota leave me made me feel helpless. Anyways, I can't really talk to my family about my problems so I look to my friends. Lately I've been feeling like I can't say much to my friends because they call me whiny. So for the past few months I've kept everything inside just so I wouldn't have to burden them with my problems.
Today during lunch my friends were all talking and my best friend Darion looked at his phone and said Dakota(my ex) posted something. I don't know why I said it but I said I wanted to see what he posted. The second I said it Darion and my other friends, Erin and Kelsey jumped on me. They told me to shut up and stop whining about Dakota, that all I do is talk about him when I need to move on. I know have to move on but I can't just snap my fingers and feel fine. I've been letting everyone talk me down every time I mention Dakota but I snapped today and went on an angry rant. The thing is, I haven't mentioned Dakota in so long, and the second I showed that I still care everyone got annoyed. Kelsey apologized saying that she didn't realize I still cared about Dakota and that I should've told them. I would've if everyone didn't gang up on me. Today when me and Darion were walking home he got angry and said that he didn't care if my feelings were hurt because he was annoyed that I can't just move on. He says that its annoying to watch someone refuse to solve their issues. Sorry for the long post(even if it probably made no sense) but apparently I can't even talk to my best friend anymore...
Today during lunch my friends were all talking and my best friend Darion looked at his phone and said Dakota(my ex) posted something. I don't know why I said it but I said I wanted to see what he posted. The second I said it Darion and my other friends, Erin and Kelsey jumped on me. They told me to shut up and stop whining about Dakota, that all I do is talk about him when I need to move on. I know have to move on but I can't just snap my fingers and feel fine. I've been letting everyone talk me down every time I mention Dakota but I snapped today and went on an angry rant. The thing is, I haven't mentioned Dakota in so long, and the second I showed that I still care everyone got annoyed. Kelsey apologized saying that she didn't realize I still cared about Dakota and that I should've told them. I would've if everyone didn't gang up on me. Today when me and Darion were walking home he got angry and said that he didn't care if my feelings were hurt because he was annoyed that I can't just move on. He says that its annoying to watch someone refuse to solve their issues. Sorry for the long post(even if it probably made no sense) but apparently I can't even talk to my best friend anymore...
