I'm Thinking Of You

[b][i]A letter to:
To you, my lover, my friend, the other half of my joy , the enhancement of my life...

I have been writing to you, since before you were born. I know I have had to wait many a long years. When I was young, I looked for you feverishly,
even though I would not meet you until later, much later in my years...each encounter, each woman I meet , has given me a quality you already have,
but have not developed or haven't discovered. I use to believe I would be with an older woman... but as time moves on, I woke up one glorious day to discover that
I, would be the older one.
But you already know age has no meaning to us both. Our encounter would be as we had dreamed so many nights we each of were alone
sending each other messages in our sleep... looking at the sensuous clouds fornicating in mid air. And perhaps dote at your impressionistic
energy I once had and now so nicely tamed.
I want you to know that I have been respectful to each woman I have met or bedded. that I have loved her truly whether it was platonic or carnal.
That I have been consistent in how I behave with them... respectful ,loyal, and gracious.
But deep down inside my soul none of them have taken my thoughts and feelings I yearn for you.
I see you in the stars, the moon at night. when I take my telescope and look to see when you might arrive in my heart, fall in my arms
embrace me in a way no other has, Touch me in a way our skin will meld together like taffy pulled in all directions.
I feel you near, yet far but you know I never say never and nothing is impossible if we have to go to the ends of the earth to meet
one another..
is it telepathy? are you sending me messages too, love?
For I feel the timbers of some wondrous love coming my way.
I must confess I didn't sleep last night, I couldn't. You kept me awake to hear your sweet soul.
do you fancy yourself searching for me in places you dare not to tread, but you do.. I may not be as mysterious as you are
but I do have my moments.
I want you to know that I have never stop learning our human condition... that I'm not frumpy at me age..
actually I feel younger than I do now...leaving the haunting of my past behind and taking only loving memories.
yes it was hard to let go of some women because I felt so strongly attached too.
But I let them go because we knew we were not each other's piece of this puzzle of love.
I have no regrets crying myself to sleep... wondering when I will meet or see you.
Sometimes yes. I have been impatient, and stubborn as well.
my will is strong and I have survived many challenges you wouldn't understand about my life... until perhaps now.
For you are still the woman I desire most to share my life with completely
we can be scared of the unknown for it is a surprise.
I only wish you to be strong and believe in yourself and know you have purpose in your life
that you are good deep loving woman with a young girl's soul like mine
How I long to spend a playful loving life with you
be adventurous and be ourselves with each other.
where ever you are love, you're bringing me close to you at your own pace
so
hug me as you hug your pillow and believe in your dreams.
Sleep with the angels to keep you safe.
It won't be long.
Love,
me
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