I Hold Onto Good Memories
I saw a man get off a black motorbike today.
It took a split second it took for me to recognise that it was an insignificant member of the public.
But, oh. In that second my heart jumped up so high, and my mind zoomed to glorious moments of the past. I felt so elated, before crashing back into the sea of monotony. Like a stone being swallowed and submerged beneath the unforgiving water.
I miss him. I wish I'd fought harder. Who knows whether the outcome would have changed? I was so conflicted, lost and just fighting to stay afloat!!
Even if my life isn't perfect, at least I have the memories. At least I've lived a little. And even though he was never mine to have, at least I got a taste of what true brilliance, and love, is.
It took a split second it took for me to recognise that it was an insignificant member of the public.
But, oh. In that second my heart jumped up so high, and my mind zoomed to glorious moments of the past. I felt so elated, before crashing back into the sea of monotony. Like a stone being swallowed and submerged beneath the unforgiving water.
I miss him. I wish I'd fought harder. Who knows whether the outcome would have changed? I was so conflicted, lost and just fighting to stay afloat!!
Even if my life isn't perfect, at least I have the memories. At least I've lived a little. And even though he was never mine to have, at least I got a taste of what true brilliance, and love, is.
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