I wanna share my worries . It is a vent

I believe there is no point of creation.

I believe there is a pointless God.

I believe this world is a piece of hell and misery.

I am helpless to sick people with end stage illnesses and it is a great worry to me.

I am scared that my life may end miserably.

I lost many things that would keep me sane and secure for the rest of my life.

I have a big secret that I won't share.
I would help you and be there for you for the rest of my nad your life if you deserve it and if it is possible in any way.

I hate death the most and it equivalents.

I had friends with issues and they were big deal to me but sadly we lost each other.

I am wishing for an end to my suffering and I am struggling every day but it is really hard.

Thank you all 💔.