I Carry a Lot of Guilt

I'm not sure I will ever stop beating myself up over my divorce. Yeah it was because after discovering my ex's boyfriends (plural) I knew trust would never return, but I still initiated and followed through on the divorce proceedings. So it's more accurate to say that "I divorced her" than the more benign "we divorced." For that I'm always carrying around the guilt of the post-divorce fallout; fallout like dynamics with kids and socio-cultural stigma.

Many tell me to let that go, and I don't disagree. But sometimes it seems like quite the long process.