I Hate Life

I have been going on this existence for 36 years and I am truly the unloved man. I have no friends and have devoted my life to my wife and 2 kids. Since early on I have always known I am not a loved man. I have never given my family a reason to question me nor have I done anything. But I am not given any benefit of the doubt. I don't fear death and often want to die. I know its not right especially since I have kids, but they will grow up and not need me. A Man who has no friends and basically no life I am just tired. I have given soo much and have nothing but pain and hurt. I just wanted to vent.