I Hate Life

Eugh so done with life and all the bullshit that comes with it. It took me a while to reduce my alcohol intake and to stop smoking and I had it under control for almost a year but recently I let it all get on top of me again. It was my brothers death anniversary and it was too much to handle so here I am back to where I was a few years ago. This dark place which is like a tunnel that has no end. I tried talking to my closest friend but he was dissapointed in me that he didn't bother trying to help. I don't blame him but right now it feels like im too broken to be fixed.