I Self Sabotage

i feel very strongly about online relationships but there is one exception i will never regret meeting online. the whole scene keeps repeating in my eyes. i was a true bitch for hurting him with a fantastically false story about my feelings for a stupid crush that was already meaninglessly dead to me. subconsciously i was angry at myself becuz i knew he would never do anything to hurt me on purpose but consciously i just accused something too wrongly without hesitating to give the situation a fair chance. by the time he did tell me wat was going on i was just so absorbed in my selfishness it drowned out all reason