I Am a Very Tall Woman

Here's my story. I'm a large woman, 6'0/6'1 and wide built. I was big for my age. Like when I was 5 people though I was 8 or 9. At 10 people though I was in high school. Kids were afraid of me. I didn't have much friends accept my best friend. Even my best friend admitted that when she first met me in grade school she flat out told me she was terrified of me. She thought I was going to be a bully. That hurt my feelings so bad. She's 4'10 and average/slender built. She said it took her weeks to come up and talk to me. We're still best friends to this day. Middle school was the worst. Well I had no friends, NOBODY accept my bestie wanted to me friends with me. I was 5'10 in middle school. Kids though I was the teacher. My mom would scold at me to stand up straight. Dad too. He told me a young woman should not be so crooked. He said, "You're tall. What did you expect? People WILL notice you. STAND UP STRAIGHT! AND SMILE!" He and I would butt heads about it. High school is when my best friend moved away. I had 0 friends. I was left out a lot because I was 6'0 and large. Guys refused to go to dances with me. I got rejected and laughed at. I tried to fit on but I always get excluded. I was lonely. Even in my special ed class. At least kids never bullied me or tried anything. They never messed with me. I got teased for my height and size. I tried to lost weight but I always end up gaining it back. I'm 230lbs but nobody believes me and dont think I need to lose any weight because I'm TALL. People make a big deal out of my height.