I Im Hurting

"Hey babygirl ill be back in a few hitting the trails". A kiss on the cheek and a wink. That haunts me everyday. The sinking feeling in my stomach the moment my phone rang. Before i even answered my body started trembleing. "You need to get to the hospital Libs. I'll come and get you"...every day i replay it in my mind. And i cant make it stop. I try dance, running, working and any distraction i can think of but after the days end i lay my head on my pillow. And i hear his voice and i think of his smile. I cannot control it i can not stop it. I want to be free but im not sure if i can or how?