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I Wish I Had The Ability To Erase Memories

So that ex everyone told me to move on from... its very hard. I have this constant urge to talk to him everytime I'm on my phone, I can't help it. & we have this thing where everytime we were together while dating I'd always look at the clock right at 12:34 so it's kinda our thing... we had been fighting the last time I talked to him because I found out he's been hanging out with that other girl still since I left (they work together so it makes sense for them to wanna be cool since his friends are cool with her, but I had issues with her in the past and he blocked her and made like he wasn't her friend the whole time I was with him) you can read the other stories if you'd like to know more on that.
So when I saw the time I took this as my opportunity to kinda lighten things that's been going on.. and I think he still cares about me, but he's confusing the shit out of me. & honestly he never tells the truth so I know it's not good for me... how do I stop this love? Or at least learn to ignore it?
He'll always choose her over me, because he'd rather have his friends and they choose her.. it's like he doesn't control his own mind ever. He told me the reason he hung out with her and went to the casino is because everyone did... I just don't get how they started hanging out because he always talked shit about her even his friends. It's like everyone was afraid to be her friend while I was around because I didn't like her, but honestly I had dropped the shit along time ago because I thought my boyfriend had her blocked and wasn't communicating with her.. and all the drama started again when I found him talking about how he didn't want to be with me to her.
So I know I shouldn't care... yet he was my first so this is very hard for me, especially when it seems like he still loves me.

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kayoshin · 36-40, M

SEEMS is the keyword. Girl if he's moved on you're just getting the booty call signals. Like he still has some left over feelings for you mostly in the crotch area but don't confuse that for love. If he can be nice to you and get laid he will, but don't imagine that means he'll take you back or nothing serious, he moved on. He probably moved on before you even broke up if he's been places with that girl while you were still together. If you don't have the inner strength to just call it OVER, then there are 2 things to help: option 1 - focus on all his biggest flaws starting with he probably cheated on you with her, and ending with the most insignificant flaw add them all up whenever you have a good thought about him that will destroy any left over feelings. option 2: get a rebound boyfriend, someone you don't really care for, just for fun doesn't have to get physical if you don't want to but who helps you spend time with a man who is not your ex etc.
Good luck!

StonerGirl69 · 26-30, F

@kayoshin lol I already try option 1, but somehow I tell myself I made him how he is.. I wasn't good to him and I admit it. But the last time I was trying he wasn't, and he hadn't cared for awhile... so I guess I can live with it... I just think I'll always care so I need to distance myself since he's toxic.
However just the thought that we could have a "future" fucks me up because I know even if I try in the future it'll never be the same, not unless I try now.. because with time away he'll have her around and I'm not okay with knowing I was replaced for years and come back to..
Sorry lol typing helps me get my feelings out and this is the best place I know for that, and I appreciate your help.

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