I Dont Think My Mom Is Much Of A Mom

I wish I can but she isn't. She walked out on us and she didn't wanna deal with a kid with a disability (me). I was 8.
I went to visit her in England a couple weeks ago. I wanted to live with her but my friends and family says I was making a huge mistake. I was wondering why they were trying to keep me away from my mom. My mom stood me up for lunch and I waited for three hours. I didn't wanna leave and her showing up. I confronted her and she said, "I forgot" and she didn't even apologize or felt awful about what she did. Everyone was right about her. She only thinks of herself and didn't want me to live with her. She told me I could stay as long as I wanted. I tried so hard to have a relationship with her but she isn't interested. She said I'm not hers anymore and I'm not her daughter anymore. I decided to go home. I couldn't live with her.
Me having a disabilty is the REALreason she left the family. I was hurt but at least I know the truth now. Good riddance but I still want her. I see why everyone was trying to keep me away from her.