I Just Want to Have Fun

I feel that even at my very short years I've missed out on so much, especially for "kids" of my generation. I feel like I've only lived 5% of life. I just want to have so much fun that I enjoy being alive but I feel like there's always something stopping me and sometimes I'm not even sure what it is. I feel like I'm lacking something that would give me that final push to get me through with what I want to do. I don't want to "have fun" the way most young people do, I don't want to drink or do drugs or attempt something illegal or commit a felony. There is also other factors like money and the fact I need to get to know people enough in real life to become close enough to make good friends.

I just want to have fun...