I'm Lost Without You
I don't even know what the hell I'm doing anymore. It's literally consumed me. I can't even hold a conversation with someone without thinking about him and what else I could have done to make him stay.
I don't know how to describe how awful it feels, knowing you'll never be enough for somebody. Or how it feels knowing that somebody else has what you want.
I don't understand how it was so easy for him to just leave. It was never suppose to be like this. I'm so hurt, and mad at him for taking advantage of me so many times.. But I'm more mad at myself for allowing it to happen. Yet all I want, still, after everything, is for him to come back once more. Even if it's just to use me for one last time. I shouldn't want him, I should hate him! But I can't, I just wish he was here.
I don't know how to describe how awful it feels, knowing you'll never be enough for somebody. Or how it feels knowing that somebody else has what you want.
I don't understand how it was so easy for him to just leave. It was never suppose to be like this. I'm so hurt, and mad at him for taking advantage of me so many times.. But I'm more mad at myself for allowing it to happen. Yet all I want, still, after everything, is for him to come back once more. Even if it's just to use me for one last time. I shouldn't want him, I should hate him! But I can't, I just wish he was here.
36-40, F