I Don't Have a Kind Heart, I Have a Hurt Hateful Heart

I keeep losing what I love my ex boyfriend passed away in a car accident 5 years ago and before that a good friend a meet on here then my Saint Bernard passed away and 2 weeks after my 10 year old cat and one after one I keep losing my beloved pets my baby Roman just pased away my cat Pelutsa got killed by my dads dog less than 2 weeks ago I’m ill I just wanna get my angel wings and leave with my beloved babies my boyfriend and my grandmother 💔😢 my babies one after another 😭💔