Hello old me..

Its me.. future you.. im finally here.. ive made progress towards the dream.. im not quite there yet but right now i feel as thought im caught between two worlds.. tangled in so much nonsense now thats impossible to get away from now no matter how far i run.. and its all because of her.. oh how i wish i could warn you of her.. of how manipulative she is.. and how much chaos and hurt she eventually brings that leads you to right here.. but i know deep down inside after you meet her you'll know.. youll know because you'll be so blinded by feelings of love and being appreciated and not looked down on.. feelings that have been neglected for so long. you wont realize the mess you walk into until its too late.. its incredible how meeting one person can change so much.. the future is now more uncertain than it has ever been.. so much so that one could say its nothing but a nightmare now and the worst is yet to come.. but time can only tell..


I dont remember the last time i saw the stars.. shining so bright..





i just want to wake up..