I Am Different [Being Different]

I grew up spending most of my time with my thoughts. Even more so now. When I was like 7 I remember calling out in a theater, standing up and yelling to stop some men from hurting someone in a play. Growing up I recall some times where I distinctly remember pain from finding out how ignorant my family was in different situations to having common sense and just caring. I'm not going that route here because I have been an asshole, I have caused people a lot of trouble. I have stolen cars, money, drugs. I am currently homeless. Today I have a much higher standpoint. I have gained some knowledge that allows me to be the most selfless person you could think of. In that sense you must also be completely selfish. In a way where it will takes more and more responsibility to understand what lasts and what doesn't and how to find peace with simply just being alive. Experiencing all kinds of influences and learning to handle them all. It's enough for me but the pain of knowing about 90 percent of everyone will never care on this level saddens me at the moment. It really shouldn't If I cared as much as I could.