I Am Ashamed of Myself

I've messed up.

I've been quite stressed this week with my sister leaving home and some crap going on at school. When I got home this afternoon I lost my temper and was rude to my mum. So now I have been grounded for the rest of the week and I'm not allowed to see my girlfriend on Saturday, which I was really looking forward to.

I had to get changed into my pyjamas. I came down for dinner, but had to go back to my room after washing up. This will happen after school for the rest of the week.

My mum came up to say I could use my laptop (so I could skype my sister and do my homework) and I could have apologised to her then, but I was still too angry with myself and I said nothing. I hate how I've behaved. I could see it unfolding in front of me, but I was too tired and cranky to control myself.

Now it's too late to apologise until tomorrow, and I know I won't be able to sleep and it's all my fault for losing my temper.