I Am Ashamed of Myself

I have these fet*shes, but realy tell people i have any let alone what that are! They are taboo, yes i have 2 maybe 3 i don't know if the last one is categorize as one. I have these needs and urges but i keep to myself. People think they are gross or just weird. I don't know never had a gf before but I don't think I'll tell her.